When I created this, the driving force was the idea of extreme contrast and even visual discord. It's an odd concept for a necklace, and I had a hard time balancing it in my mind--even more so when I had a bead break after I had started construction. Even though I sometimes still question why I made this the way I did, I am pleased with the results and have gotten several positive reviews from people, as well as some ideas for improvement that I will probably turn into a similar piece in the near future.
It was a difficult piece to make from a design standpoint because most of what I make is simply made to be pleasing to the eye and intriguing because of it's beauty. This was made to sort of jump out at you and say something loudly-- maybe even something that you might not want to hear--but say it so eloquently that you can't deny it. But maybe in the back of my mind, that's exactly why I wanted to make this for Arty Party: HIV is one of those things that no one wants to hear about but everyone needs to know. It's also one of those areas where a person's reality is often in stark contrast to what they say and do: There are a lot of people out there who are living with this disease and the stigma and the health problems, who say nothing, and give face to being perfectly fine.
The name of the piece, I Don't Care came again from that idea of contrast and discord. There is a song by eatliz called I Don't Care that is strong and discordant. The lyrics for the song convey general nonchalance by saying things such as "I wanted to sing, but I don't care" and "I wanted to give but, I don't share", but the music and the fervor with which they are sung convey unequaled passion. The song speaks of someone who wants you to think she doesn't care and isn't interested, but in reality, is very emotionally invested. It is this kind of extreme contrast that I see in my piece. It is actually this type of extreme contrast that I see in myself many days.
So, I guess this year, without knowing it, I chose to donate something that is both personal and attempts to speak out for the people it is helping. As much as I debated whether or not I liked the piece because of it's sheer oddity and stark contrast, now that I realize why I created it and all the things it can mean, I have to be proud of it. I hope you enjoy it and will come to Arty Party to see it.
